April 10, 2008
Drifting along in this shower
I couldn't get to sleep a wink. But I closed my eyes and rested awhile. My eyes were tired from getting out in the unbearably hot weather this morning.
Then, it started to rain.
I love the rain, but I still hate the crappy weather. I love life but I hate the deceit. I love the past but I hate you. I love the chime being moved by the wind but I hate the helplessness. I love the emptiness but I hate the loneliness. I love the quiet but I hate the boredom. I love the intention but I hate the execution. I love the details but I hate how they haunt. I love the thought but I hate the self-righteousness. I love the companionship but I hate the obligation. I love the duty but I hate the responsibility. I love the ambiguity but I hate the confusion. I love sharing but I hate having my trust betrayed. I love taking a risk but I hate that the decision might never be mine to make. I love the bright side but I hate the disappointment. I love hope but I hate to be gullible. I love... but I hate...
I'm still at this bloody same spot, gazing out the window, listening to the rain. Nobody outside at the corridor, just some stupid thoughts wasted down that regretful walkway.
And Hugo just barked. At the thunder. Good doggie.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 13:38